Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Elated!


Life is incredible.
Motherhood is the best thing that's ever happened to me. it suits me just fine :)

Hayden sleeps a lot right now, which of course is normal. Babies on average sleep 16 hours a day. I love watching him sleep, always curled up on his mama, but i cherish every second he's awake. He's starting to focus and when he looks at me my heart melts. He coos alllll the time and loves his hands. The only times he really cries is during diaper changes and when he's hungry.

We are co-sleeping. Hayden's pediatrician even expressed that close skin to skin contact will not only be beneficial to his growth but for our relationship as well, so we sleep skin to skin[he's on my chest] and i love it. It eases my fears of him not making it through the night too...with us being that close i can hear and feel every breath that he takes and he can feel my breath and hear my heartbeat as well. It reminds him of being in my womb. SAFE!!!!. Hayden allows me about 3 hour intervals of sleep at night which in my opinion is really good!! i feel good...i feel great. I'm bursting with joy and happiness. I'm really blessed. Words seriously cannot describe what i'm feeling right now.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Welcome to the World!!!


Hayden Michael Crowe-McManus was born on July 15th at 6:57am.
He weighed 6 lbs 4oz and is 19.5 inches.
He's beautiful!!!! Words cannot describe it. He's perfect.

We came home Tuesday and things have been challenging, but wonderful. It's nice to be home but it is hard adjusting to not having a nurse by our side with a push of a button. Breastfeeding is difficult but I'm determined to make it work. I'm exhausted but i feel great. I'm elated. Hayden sleeps in my arms during the day and on my chest at night. We tried to put him in the bassinet the first night but I couldn't do it. I needed him close to me.
I'm a mama. Yes, me!!!!! I'm so happy. I can't even describe it. CLOUD NINE. yep, that's where i am.